Scared.

I’m terrified of the future. As optimistic I try to view this world, I know by experience already that life doesn’t always turn out the way we want it too. That there will always be tribulations and unexpected events that will turn our lives upside down and challenge us. 

I look around at the biggest people of my life and I’m afraid that they one day won’t be part my life any more. That all I’ll have of them are memories of thinking years ago that they would never leave. It’s scary thinking how my dreams and goals may not come true and I may be one of those people one day struggling to survive and be happy each day. It’s even frightening to think that I won’t find someone that I love and loves me back and I’ll be alone. It’s scary to think that right now might be the best that I may ever feel or will ever have. 

And it scary to know how mysterious and unknown the future is. Even though I hate admitting that, I know it will always be in the back of my mind. But it doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t be courageous enough to face the future, because for every negative side of it all, there are positives things that could happen. You could grow old with people you love, your dreams could come true, and the one you always been searching for could finally be found.

You will never know what the future will bring. It’s okay to be scared of it, but always look forward to it. It might turn out all okay in the end.