You're Worth It

There is a time I think in everyones life when we don’t feel like we’re worth it. Where we just don’t feel good enough, especially to the one who we give our hearts too and where we feel like we’re being taken for granted from our friends and family. And I think you question during these time if we’re possibly doing something wrong or how someone could ever love you back or if you’re just flawed while everyone has secretly received an manual to how to get through life.

But I just want you to remember that you’re worth it. That you’re good enough. And I know I may be a complete stranger to you, and you may disregard me saying it because I don’t know anything about you, but please believe me. Believe you’re beautiful, inside and out. Believe that you make someone smile even when they feel like crying. Believe that you make someone happy by just talking to them even when it seems like you guys are talking about nothing. Believe that you’re even stronger then you think and could do everything in the world you put your heart too. Believe that other people believe in you. Believe that you’re worth it.

Truth is, we rarely admit how much we care for another person. How much we love them, or how much we appreciate everything they do for us. We don’t say how much someone means to us everyday, and we forget to remind them how amazingly beautiful and special they are they are to us. But just cause we forget to say it or even show it sometimes, don’t stop believe that you’re worth it. Cause you never deserve to feel that way. What you deserve to know it that you’re extraordinary in every single way.

Take A Walk In My Shoes.

If you were going to take a walk in my shoes, then I do not envy you. For you would be stuck in a maze with no exit, and trapped within walls that would even make the greatest escape artists claustrophobic.

And at your feet you would see that the ‘shoes’ you wear are not even there, for you walk bare across shatter glass, cutting you deep from each step you take. Reflections of these broken fragments you walk through are images reminding you of dreams that you once believed in, now destroyed by a series of unfortunate events that acted as the hammer that smashed against it.

If you were going to take a walk in my shoes, I suggest that you bring a flashlight, but I doubt that it will bring any use to you. As the darkness that surrounds you is no where comparative to the darkness you’ll feel within, consuming at your heart where it is home to the monsters of cruelty and despair. I promise you, you would not last a second in my shoes. Not with the demons that walk beside and within me everyday. But don’t even think about taking a walk in my shoes, for I would never allow you too. No one deserves this pain I feel inside.

Just So You Know

I know that I act jealous a lot of times when you hang out with other people. But it’s not that I don’t trust you when you hang out with other guys. It’s just that I’m scared and selfish. There’s never a time in my life where I don’t feel incredibly lucky to be with someone so amazing and beautiful, and there’s never moment where I don’t want to be the one with you. And I’m terrified one day you’ll realize that I don’t deserve you and that you deserve someone much better than me. I do trust you more then anything but nothing will be ever scarier for me then that chance of ever losing you. I just needed you to know that. 

The Perfect Relationship.

I think we’re all guilty of trying to find that perfect person for us. In our minds, we have an idea of what we want and we strive to find that person to fall in love with. We seek physical attractiveness, to the way they should act, to the quirks and personality they should have. But what I think people don’t tend to realize is that this perfect person that is dreamt up in our minds, is not always the perfect one for them. Most of time, it’s the unexpected that manages to take our breaths away like no other. 

I think the perfect relationships goes past looks and even personality to an extent. In the end, it’s how that person makes you feel inside. If you get that uncontrollable silly smile whenever you think about them or talk to them. When you stare into their eyes, it’s like someone is finally looking at who you truly are for the first time; and you can feel them searching your soul . And in the end of the day, you realize how scared you truly you are to lose them; not because you care or love them; but rather you know that they become a part of you and your heart would be lost with them if they went away. What truly makes it amazing is that you somehow know that only one person could ever make you feel this way. To me, that’s the perfection we should look for.

Something To Hide.

We all have something to hide. Trapped within our souls is something that not even the closest people in our lives know exist. It’s a monster; It’s a depression; It’s an anger; It’s an obsession. It’s what we keep caged to ourselves in order to look somewhat sane in a already insane world. In the darkest parts of our minds rests the problems, disappointments, and sadness consumed within our lives that you wished didn't exist yet define who you have become. 

It’s what masks an aching heart with a smile. It’s what makes us want to be alone when you already feel lonely. It’s what haunts us at the middle of the night questioning everything you thought you understood. It’s what causes you to be numb wondering how many tragedies more you can take before giving up. It’s what makes us feel like we’re not good enough no matter how amazing you be. In the attempt to not have this darkness within exploited, it will be tucked away as voices in our heads scream for our escape when in reality our mouths will never admit our pain.

We all have something to hide. Something we will never admit to. Something that we never be fully understood by yourself or other. Something we can never be able to explain even if we wanted to share it with the world. It’s the terrifying monster that has found a home in you; that you alone faces.

Insignificant Moments.

Life is filled with these moments that pass quickly before our eyes that we hardly give them a second thought. These are the moments that seem so insignificant to us when they occur, that we don’t really know how much something could truly really mean to us until years later when it comes creeping back into our brains in the form of only a memory. 

These moments could be as simple as the first time you catch yourself staring into a strangers eyes. It’s a moment that could of been shrugged off as any other time you have seen a stranger on the street, but this time being the beginning of when you met the person you fell in love with. Or those moments where you’re with someone and you have your arms around them or you feel their arms around you while as both don’t do anything else…could be the moment that makes you smile the most surpassing those adventurous dates you have. Or just thinking back to a time where you were smiling for no reason at all while with family or friends could be that once insignificant moment that could secretly mean so much more. 

We experience many seemingly insignificant moments everyday. But maybe they are just diamonds in the rough. So cherish every day and second, because you ever really know if today is the day you have that moment that will forever change your life or will end up making you happy years from now.

It’s Okay To Cry

It’s okay to cry. It’s okay that there are times where you feel weak. It’s even okay to feel damaged and hurt enough that we lose confidence in ourselves or this world at times. It’s okay to scream at the top of your lungs in aguish, feel an hopelessness in the pit of your stomach, and just want to disappear. We’re humans facing a reality of a darken world where all we can be is lost and fall down to our knees is the readiness to give up.

Sometimes it’s better to admit that you have painful scars hiding behind a personified mask of a smile, for a fake smile is like putting a bandaid on a gunshot wound. In a place where people are killing each other each day, where people are dying and saying goodbye for the last time, where hearts are shattering into broken pieces, and where bad things seem to always happen to good people; you don’t always have to be strong and look perfect as the pain of suffering eats away at you inside. 

It’s okay to cry. We already know that the world changes in a instant and life could surprise you and give you happiness the next day; but we’re all still going to have bad days. Sometimes, we need to let out our frustrations and feel sadness so we can eventually move on and appreciate the beauty of when a real smile etches across your face.